inside my head

want to know what's inside my head? well I'm not sure you'd like to know because I am positive I don't want to hear it out loud either.

I think some people may have done this. thinking things over and over and thinks it's better to keep it inside the head than blurt it out. they say some things are better left unsaid.

If given the chance to voice out what's on my mind. there would be chaos, hate! so I'd rather keep my mouth shut and keep whatever I'm thinking.

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english

It is so hard when I try to speak english. Its like me trying not speaking. I so love to learn conversational english but it seems so complicated. I feel I'm the king in the movie the kings speech. Even though I know by heart what I want to express no words come out my mouth. I think my brain messes it all up. It is so frustrating, I feel like crying all the time.

I think its not self confidence that I'm lack of. Its just me.

sleep

I can't seem to sleep when I have to. if I am sleepy I can't too. ☹ my body clock has to change somehow because it is affecting my little one big time. even though she wants to do something productive her mom is sleepy. & when she wants to sleep I want to do something I want but I can't since she wants me near her all the time. I know it's my fault, I'm guilty for making her get used to it, being with me all the time. I think I'm attached to her much! =b note to self: pls change!

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z fell

zhoe fell of the bed early this morning.. we were totally shocked about what happened. we were all awake. but my eyes were closed. she was kicking the whole time. but I wasn't thinking she would be able to somersault with the big pillow that was protecting her to fall. oh my!! bryann &i jumped when we heard a loud bang. I looked down zhoe was on the floor.. ): her face and body facing the floor. tragic! I will never close my eyes if she's awake. I hope I can do that all the time.

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cooking

I started to learn cooking & I love it. but it is so tiring when I can't concentrate because every time I start I end up doing lots of other things. tsk! I end up washing lots of pots,dishes and utensils. how sad!

the bad thing is my cooking gone to waste! I made this uber eeky soup. till my next try!

I think I will never be a cook. at least when I'm hungry I won't starve to death.

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songs of my life

it started with ___. shorty ur my NGEL,a match made in heaven. well sure is a one sided love that we all know it will only happen in heaven then I've met mr. MORE THAN WORDS it was short-lived but tWas still great. I got into the hands of mr. __ this one ended bad. I remember there was ISANG LINGGONG PAG-IBIG,literally ended after a week. glad I met my LA, LA LA MEANS I  YOU. tWas a happy relationship till someone came in. so there's mr. I COULD NOT ASK FOR MORE. that was a funny one because of a small misunderstanding it went down the drain & heard rumors of wedding bells. so finally I met the one - my prince charming, mr. YOUR LOVE & we are living a happy life.

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insomnia

zhoe & I have insomnia. I think I taught her a very bad habit! tsk!

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